"WE WERE MEANT TO LiVE FOR SO MUCH MORE": so here i am 2:00 pm and i'm crying, sitting in front of my computer on a perfectly beautiful day.  2 more weeks of this crap and then i'll be free again... maybe.

i know i've said it a gazillion times already, and i'm going to say it a gazillion times more.  i miss may so much she gets things that NO ONE else ever does.  ever.

me (1:55:07 PM): i don't fit in anywhere really
may (1:55:13 PM): yes you do!
may(1:55:15 PM): with me

... she's so awesome :x i'm the luckiest gurl in the world to have a best friend like her

YEAH okay i should stop whining but FUCK YOU if you're thinking that cuz you don't have to read this shit, you chose to.

i'm tired of trying.  i haven't really cared about anything the past 2 years and now i'm TRYiNG to care about my grades... but it's hard.  it sucks that i keep "failing" now... since i'm trying.  it's really not helping my self esteem at all.  i feel like it was easier not caring about my grades cuz it's like "oh i failed... oh well it's not like i tried to get a good grade in the 1st place".  but now i'm trying and i'm still failing.  that's messed up.  and i've totally fogotten how to study.  i can't bring myself to just sit down and read something.  i can't focus or concentrate.  i feel like i have ADD or something... messed up crap.

bebextc19 (2:12:54 PM): just dont talk to anybody.. lay in bed and watch tv and take a nappie, wake up then do homework. just dont talk to anybody lol

whoa.  it's like 10 minutes later and i'm okay.  hahaha FUCK the bioplarness.

november 11th.  new josh groban cd comes out <33